Was any of it even real?
Added 2023-12-15 01:27:20 +0000 UTCOne of the most difficult things about recent (18 months) happenings in my life is how a very bad person got to me in such a personal way that they were able to confuse me about reality. Iâm at a point now where I donât know what was real or even who was real.
Would someone really come into my life just to trick me into trusting them?
Itâs wildly painful to open up to someone and later realize itâs possible they were only using me. Or maybe it was all an act. So heartbreaking.
And then I still hang on to hope that it was real and that I wasnât fooled⌠again.
If only the âred flagsâ were literal pieces of red cloth waving in the wind above the heads of people. But, to be fair⌠red is apparently one of my favorite colors and I never learn. đ
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Guh. After my divorce, I was catfished for months by someone. Absolutely real feelings developed and when the pieces hit the floor and the veil was lifted, hitting the wall of âwhat of this was ever realâ was tangible and abrasive to everything I held true. I experience this, even, reading poems Iâve publishedâonce the relationship has fallen apart. But what Iâve come to believe isâit doesnât matter what was there or not on the other side of the equation; that poem is Real because it flowed out of what was real for and in ME. Much love and energy to you in this.
Joseph
2023-12-26 17:08:55 +0000 UTC
